In front of the world

I want to write, sing, paint, and express myself again.
Not in my room, but in front of the whole world.
I must be bored. or more precisely, lonely.

A Brand and its Commander's Intent(CI)

I'm enjoying this book now, "Made to Stick," that best sold a few years ago-

And this concept of Commander's Intent(CI) made me ponder further.

Inner Values vs Life Right Now

I'm the type of person who feels extremely low & unhappy 

when my outer life is not in line with my inner values-

And this is what I'm going through right now.

I've lost clarity in life.

Where am I headed?

What do I want? Whom do I want to be?

What makes me feel uncomfortable and anxious now?

What are some of the areas I'm trying to not face?

What am I called to be? do?

I very much mind the gap now.

Heightened Reality

"It's them, but just a heightened reality, a slightly different version, my version of what I see"


To me, what Scott Schuman said in the Loewe+The Sartorialist video echoes one of the essential characteristics of art.


The reality, whether pretty, ugly, mundane, expressed in some kind of a form can be beautiful nonetheless and still contain the essence of the reality.
The perfect example would be Instagram, which gently puts a sheer veil on the raw reality and instantly creates magic out of it.


Isn't that what people desire and pay for? 
Wishing for a sprinkle of magic over life.

Loneliness & Intimacy

If you are afraid of loneliness, don't marry.

- Anton Chekhov

Although I've never been married,
I feel like I exactly know what he's talking about.
When finding out that the one whom you've thought you knew well is in fact
a very different person in reality,
that gap is unbearably painful and feels lonely,

leaving huge emptiness in the heart.

Social

While watching 2 documentaries(BBC&National Geographic) on North Korea,I thought about the irony of the term "social"- how it's being heard everyday now and thus completely distanced itself from a rather somber connotation.

Living the Inside Out

so yes, i got busy and stopped the activity called thinking,
and without any better choice,

i was living life, responding/reacting to things as they came along

and suddenly i realize
this life was only leading me to a breakpoint that is essentially unnecessary for me to bear, had things been planned inside out in the first place with mindful intension

pause and take control.
lead and don't be led.
live the inside out.
and please don't compromise.